I was thinking of getting off blogspot but idk. So my weekend begins with..

Thursday; What I love about being in college is I can go to school on whatever day I want &shit. I didn't go to class cus I was glued to my bed &had a hellof a hard time getting out. -_- surprisingly enough GF/SM whatever you wna call her wanted to come out. I was so excited cus I haven't really gone the club with her recently since she's not longer "on the market". Haha, but hey! I'm glad she's happy in her relationship(= but yeah, we got ready at my house & I drove out to Abyss this time since Twin always drives & plus he got his teeth pulled out. But Twin is a sav, off tops for drinkin and being more drunk than he had expected. Mozel tof to him. Haha. Then, the crowd was boranggg ..just chilled lightweight drunk but nothin too serious. Sat on the side with SM, Hung & Berto watching people and shit ..what I thought was mad funny though was when dumbass SM dropped her damn light up lollipop = epic fail of the night. The night ended boringly quick drive back home with Twin talkin shit as usual & ktfo.

Friday; I wanted alllllll this week for Friday to come. You know why? Cus Whisper was gna be crackin'. That's why. But damn, I stayed home all day got ready &shit..copped 2 bottles of Bacardi with pawdy people &headed out to Whisper. All I can say is WE ALL GOT FUCKED UP. Hahaha. Fuckin crazy night though cus Me, Anna & Lumanog popped ..mind you it was Lumanogs first time. Haha she was feelin herself tho. Mad drama but I'm glad it was somewhat settled that night but then everything was in the clear Saturday morning/afternoon. But fuck, when whisper ended I was sooo good. Lol. Then Twin yacked, hella funny cus he usually don't. Then ehh, dropped off people & I got my car headed out to Dennys cus Lumanog was lightweight trippin so I just wanted to check on her &see if she was goood. Ran in to Krys and everyone there & also Crisgel & the rest of the 21+ girls. Haha. But fuck when I was driving through the Serramonte parking lot I was straight mobbin through stop signs &shit. But right when I pulled up near Dennys I seen rollers ...so fuck. I got paranoid cus one I was lightweight rollin & I smelled like drank. Yiiiikes, would've gotten me fucked up. OFFTOPS. Then whatever chilled there for a minute &headed home around 5am.

Saturday; MY FAVORITE DAY OF THIS WEEKEND. Hella weak I had church at like 8AM, kinda hungover &shit. Mad sleepy. Then I slept the rest of the day til the SJ party ..booooy, that shit was mos'def legit. Started prepartying at Pauls house took a couple shots just to be on that goodfeel. Went to PizzaMyHeart cus they were hungry plus we needed to kill time cus we didn't wna show up mad early to the party &crap. But apparently there was people there already so we headed there quick after eating ..draaaaank more at the party, took a half && beer pong w/ SM. Those dudes we was playin was trickin us and shit saying we had to stand behind the line and shit when they weren't even doing that. Hella gay. I knew I was fucked up cus I couldn't even taste the beer. Eeeeeek. Lol. That shit was crackin though &then some weak hoe wanted to start shit but nothin' happened. Party ended like it was a club and shit hella gay saying "this is the last song of the night, and after this ya'll needa get out" or some fag shit like that. Then we all cut out but me, twin &anna always is ona hype so we mobbed out to Joels house. Draaaank more Chivas, lol and table danced. Hahahaha. Omg. Shit was so gay. But whatever. Night ended at 6AM. Shitttt.

Sunday; Woke up drunk as fuck still &had church at like 10 -_- I was dying. Lol, then I just came home after &slept my day away. Fuckin tight. Hahaha.

I must say this weekend was SO mothafuckin eventful considering that SJ party topped everything off just right! Right on Marv for the invite! Shit. Lol.


But other than that, life ain't always about partying & getting fcked up. Its just a temporary thing & I'm not gna lie but shit I'm slippin with some of my classes & off tops I needa pull it together. Me & Kristen always talk about how school is sooooooooo fuckin gay but we need it.


Augh, I feel like I'm always facing this emotional retardation. I hate, hate, hate how I base everything off my past & how I was treated.. Like I just can't help it I've become so immune to being treated the way I did. I'm not gna lie, I let my ex get the best of me ..he wore me out emotionally and drained every bit of it. He has yet to realize that.. I've become so numb & I just feel like, you are trying hard to get to me but I push you away in some aspect. Maybe you don't see it but I do cus I just don't wna be hurt. I know that I can't always live in my past but I guess I just wanna learn from my mistakes & just the shit I've been through ..I felt like I went to hell and back. I did invested so much emotions into my ex that I feel like ..I was just his bitch cus he knew I'd do anything for him. But I learned to never ever play with fire again cus damn he left the biggest scar in my life. I hope you fucking know that, Marty.





But now, I want to truly say ..I got something good.



SINCERELY FUCKIN YOURS.