bitter.

There was just something odd about today.. I woke up fine but having to deal with my mom becus of some complications and her bitching to me bout shit. Then I just got ready and headed to kristens house then waited for jenn, we were tryna decide what we wanted to today just to get her mind off things. So we just headed out to the city and walked around didn't really do too much, didn't buy anything cus it just seemed like an ehhh day. After that we just hit up other places but as we were headed towards hillsdale there was just something we talked about that sprung up an old ex. Then, it just triggered my bitterness and just being heartless came back when I thought I re-gained the feeling to feel something real. Then, eh that pretty much ruined my day. Plus side Kristens parents got us a tostada salad. Hahaha.


Although, I do wna elaborate on my bitter feelings ..I would say heart but at the same time I feel like I don't have one. Honestly, I've been brushing people off just cus I don't wna face the reality of being hurt but at the same time you can't say I'm wrong becus like I was told I'm only being cautious and there's never ever anything wrong with that. I just know that I should be allowing that person to my heart becus what have I got to lose when I have nothing anymore. I feel like I can't get hurt anymore than I already am. I feel like I'm overthinking unnecessary things but this whole idea of: LOVE ..is a joke.

My past relationships have made a major impact on my decisions currently. I know I should never compare the past and present becus whatever happened before already did and there's nothing I can do but change the present and the future. "I don't wna make the same mistake & FALL BACK ON MY FACE AGAIN."


PS;
To that weak ass nigga YOU MAKE ME HELLA LAUGH. Hahahaha.

Fakeass gogohao regardless you'll remain on the hitlist. Haha.


ILYSMK! & my weekenders<3