neverbeeninlovebefore;talib

Love; I've come to realize half the time its a trick to make you believe that there is someone out in this world who will care for you & show you the affection you want other than your parents or next of kin. Guy and girls always play the same game to each other when it comes to getting hurt you want to hide your emotions but at the same time explode and tell them how you really feel. Honestly, it's just a game. I feel like I've learned enough to know although I still need to learn how it is to really love someone again. I made myself turn into someone I didn't ever want to be when it comes to showing that I really care about someone or potentionally love them. I think that relationships are a beautiful struggle that everyone should encounter at least once in their lifetime because I know I have and I lost all of it but Im glad. Things happen for a reason and it really has affected my life in a positive and negative way. To believe simple words like "trust me" or "i love you" has a major impact because there's that invisible faith to think that the person who is saying that to you means it. Once all of that invisible faith is gone it's so hard for the other party to believe them again because of what they proved them wrong. I've become so numb to those kind of things and built thing character inside of me to just simply pass up the person if they fucked up. I feel like second chances are a no go and that it's a waste of time. Although, over time I learned loving someone is the most beautiful thing in the world and to share it with someone and it is inevitable that you will argue and there will be complications but don't be so soft where you give in all the time or pour out your emotions thinking it'll bring them back. My friend always told me 'love is the answer' & I really think that is the stupidest thing ever said to me because all it does is just hurt you in the end.

Really I don't know where I was going with this blog possibly because one of my good friends is going through shit I've been through and I hate to see her like this. But Im a firm believer that it is a necessary step in life that you must take because it builds you up and yes it will scar you for life but it is surely something you look back on and will give you that foundation knowing there are possiblities for getting hurt again. I hate when sappy songs come on because they make you believe that there is that type of love. No love is perfect. No person is perfect but thats what makes life more interesting and it should encourage someone to seek more out of life. I used to feel dependent on that significant other and when they left my world was torn apart and I didn't know what to do anymore.




As of now, I'd prefer to be chill off relationships.