I'm not sure whats driven me lately to be blogging but whatever it is, I love it.

Today consisted of a bunch of nothing working downtown is great and all but if your only seeing two damn patients ..i dont know what to say or if its even worth it. Don't get me wrong but San Francisco will always be live to me one thing it truly reminds me of was my freshman/sophmore year in high school and I sure miss those days.

Being at home and eating dinner alone is what I enjoy the most ...as of right now Im eating a salad very plain but yet fuckin blowing up my tastebuds Im sure you will all think I'm some kind of weirdo but I just ate two whole garden grown tomatoes with regular iceberg lettuce topped with vinegarette and chili sauce, strange? But fuck it, it tastes amazing to me.

Last night I had a close friend vent to me and we both came to the conclusion that "loyalty doesnt get you nowhere" possibly that saying could be wrong to some but to us we've faced assholes who tend to take our kindness for weakness. I'm sure there are a handful of guys who stick to their "Im different" bullshit but truth be told guys will be guys and girls will be girls, the ones who are overly sensitive behind closed doors but yet have the ability to be the bitch that all guys loath. History repeats itself as one told me, and I agree maybe not in the same exact way but Im sure as hell it'll come back all over again in a very close way.

And as for my past, there's plenty there and sometimes I just don't know what to do with it. File it labeled "past" or maybe the "hold" file cus I know it'll do me some good in the future as for now I'm leaving it as it is.

Overanalyzing the unecessary shit keeps me sane
Worrying about the next days 9 to 5 gives me ease
Oxymoron I'd suggest but yet appealing since thats
what kept me going these past 20 years.